Crisis team came to assess me today and will be dealing with me while on home leave during the next two weeks. Was interesting and I was a little nervous as they were definitely ensuring that it was safe for me to be going home in the first place so yeah, was a little on edge.

Informed them that I want to start building up home leave and that this was a test for me to see how I coped. That I am feeling more stable due to the medication than I did when I had 3 days leave over a month ago and though I'm expecting there to be fluctuations in moods and even heightened stress... knowing there is support there in the form of my wife and the crisis team (a phone call away 24 hours a day) I should be ok.

They mentioned that once I've been discharged and transferred to the community psychiatric nurse, it will be suggested that I have home alone support during the day while my wife is at work (leaves at 7 and gets back at 6... I do get isolated and in line with my diagnosis and notes this would be a safe route).

They are going to visit me on Sunday at home and then call me Monday for a follow up check in. I go back into hospital on Monday night after my T appointment.

Wrote most of the above while in hospital but had to shut down computer as wife came to pick me up and started moaning at the 'are you not even packed yet?'... I responded with 'we've been together 15 years honey, what were you expecting?' hehe. Anyway, this board has it's hidden secrets and I'm impressed... went to start this reply again and it had saved what I'd written

In the taxi on the way home I had a bit of a panic attack and wanted to go back to hospital... wife just squeezed my leg and got me to breath. Once we got home, paid the taxi driver, got in the house and greeted our dog... she was really exited to see me and we played for a good half hour.

Oh it is, big, black and grumpy as hell (more of a Welsh dragon in girth than a Chinese one)

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