As I write this, I am crying. I have read everyone's response and you all are right. I just need some guidance on how to handle the "pictures" situation. Regarding counseling, he said he's not going, he's not the one with the problem. I've already begun my process to find counseling for me for guidance...but he says I'm the one with the problem, so he doesn't need to go. He said his counselor is God and that's all he needs.

I had a hard time "faking" it last night...we didn't talk much. Lots of tension...but he will say that's my fault. He will say to me, "I told you....you must show me love and affection. if you want this relationship to work, it's all on you." The thing is, I can't talk to him....he will always yell or scream and then I shut down even more.

I am crying right now...upset stomach and all....