I certainly hope this does not evoke any negative feelings for any of you. Please don't read this if it will.

I just found out my uncle died last night. I was so close to him and his son, my cousin and I are six months apart in age. We practically grew up as brother/sister. I'm going to do a reading for them.

So, I'll be flying out of town to Pa. for a few days. That means, I'll be missing my T appt. on Tuesday.

I'm a mess right now because I have so much I desperately need to say to T before I leave. I'm one of those who thinks "what if the plane crashes and I never got to apologize to him or at least discuss my real reasoning for our conversation the other day"...I lost a friend on 9/11 so that is what is behind this faulty thinking.

But I'm afraid to call and ask to see him tomorrow. First, they may not have any time available, second we have the issue of not coming in 2x per week because of insurance issues and third, he thinks I need to feel the pain between sessions of needing to call him or write letters and have him call me back.

Now what do I do??