Im so sorry you are going through all this. You really do need help. last resort you can go to the er from there inpatient ( i know you really dont want to do that ) once inpatient you will be started on medications and they can get you stable and more functional .. while in there a social worker can get your set up .with a Pdoc and T... Also because of your finacial situation they will be able to get you on medicaid and they will set you up with any kind of help possible .

Please take can of you