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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel
My T and Pdoc have made "comments" (I felt like they were threats) if my SI gets "worse" (meaning more frequent/severe).
But I did tell my T and Pdoc about my past SI at my first appts with them. Pdoc didn't really address it. T tried to use the threat: "If you SI, I can have you hospitalized". I called her out on that BS right away.
This last episode of SI, I got "threatened" real severely. I told my T that I don't need to be punished more for the SI, that it feels like I'm being punished for my honesty, and that right now I actually need MORE support because I'm in a fragile state. She agreed, and has since stopped the "threats".
My Pdoc... I haven't had the chance to fully confront her and I'm still extremely angry with her.
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I'm sorry you went through that... yeah, I don't get it either. Doctors don't fire patients who get sicker. I can understand it must be horrible to watch someone doing this and not be able to get them to stop - but surely Ts/Pdocs realize that it's because people are in overwhelming pain (it was for me, anyway)... and that maybe threatening them is NOT an effective way to remove that pain?
Really frustrating... I just wish I had a better read on how he would react. So far, he seems pretty good. I guess I'm thinking back... his website says something like "there's a 4-6 week wait for initial appointments" - but there's not. I asked him about that (and asked him about his views of honesty with clients!) - and he said he's actually pretty honest and upfront, but that's not something he wants to change, because without it, he gets calls from new people wanting to schedule same day emergency visits. His comment was something along the lines of, "that's not what I do... I'm not running a crisis center".
That's all fine... but it definitely leaves me with a little tiny hint of... "Is this going to be too much? Is this going to be the thing that makes him say, 'you know, maybe I'm not the right person to help you - please go away now.'"