hi all I hope your all good

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I posted earlier about how I dont feel emotion I feel I should add more. I am going to appologise tho as im awful at writing and I have know idea what to write. Its TRUE I dont feel my emotions and I pretend to everyone by acting the emotions that go with any situation.
I go through phases of not Being bothered about anything and every so often ill try to brake the cycle of numbness and not caring, but I think I do care somewhere im just not sure how much.
I often lie about my life to make it sound interesting. I have a few failed attempts at making it interesting but that's it.
In my last post I said I want to learn to feel again so I can return the love and affection she shows me.
I dont know why I do the this I act or feel this way but I want to be a human again I just dont know where to start can anyone help?
P.s if you haven't seen my last post im Rob I live in the UK and im 26