Hi Ally,

I am new to this forum, but not new to the day-to-day challenges that are part of living life with a mental illness. For the past 29 years I have battled with major depresssive disorder, and have been in that same dark, hopeless place that you are right now, but I am still here! It will get better.

Allow yourself permission to feel bad; we all have times when we are on autopilot and numb; because that is how we survive. So don't let other's ignorance and insensitivity get to you; feel sorry for them because they will never feel the depths of emotions that you have been gifted.