I told my T, because I had used it as an example of how my best friend and I had shared a secret of mine, and how she reacted, how I felt etc. my t said that the issue was like a massive elephant in the room

so I told her about the SI. It was really hard to say, I literally could not get words out. Ughhhh. When I managed to say it, I felt okay.
But it actually triggered me quite badly and I SI d the following day

I don't know how I feel about it now, but I think it's important for a t to know. That way, if you're working through some difficult stuff, they can take your past coping strategies into account and help to find different ways to cope. Xxx