Right, woke up and my internet seems to have fixed it's self

No, it's temporary leave leading up to discharge... the hospital encourages day leave, night leave, weekend etc to see how you cope and to make sure that once you discharge the chances of you being re-admitted to hospital soon after are reduced. Since I've been at the hospital, there have been a couple of patients who have discharged... then not long after are back on the ward.

It is very metaphorical and in some ways is in a similar light to a coping visualisation I had as a child. When I suffered badly by bullying, there was not much I could do about the physical side... but with the verbal and emotional I would imagine myself to be like a space ship from the future with force fields... each cruel word just depleted a force field but did not touch the core of me. When I admitted this to my T she was impressed that I was apparently naturally using cbt techniques from a very early age without any formal training (I chuckled at this).

As for the ones she wants me to try at the moment, it is the protector (the dragon) that is most useful and effective for me at the moment... will be talking about the other two creatures (nurture and assertiveness I believe) on Monday as self nurture is non existent and assertiveness is a tricky area for me... I am assertive, just that how I express it can be very challenging for others.

I have my assessment date (or at least first appointment) on the 5th of September.

Not sure I handled the conflict very well (upset the wife), but it was handled without me resorting to going back to hospital or self harming.... so could have been better... but it was alright.

Can't recall saying I wanted to hit a person... that's not to say I didn't so if you find the post then please let me know. Initially I am very much drawn to inanimate objects. If however someone was to punch me, then that would change the circumstances.