I've noticed that despite being my anxiety getting worse, I was and am becoming more and more comfortable talking openly over here. I don't know why, is it just the more open atmosphere or not having to worry about people not understanding any of my problems. But I've always wondered, why do people still find me important enough to care, or find time to talk to me no matter how unreasonable I'm being. I would've (and have before..) given up on me a long time ago, how do you guys keep this all up..

And for those that care, update on me: Past week has been kinda bad. I've left my bedroom for only a few hours during the week and mostly just stayed in bed. was sui for one of the days after being triggered by my parents once again going out of their way to call me useless and worthless for not doing anything, not saying it's not true but still always hurts. It's getting really hard to find the motivation to make an appointment right now.