Thank you.. I think he is trying to jump start me..... and yes it is working. That is the good and the not so good news.

I have to give him credit for that. I am faxing him and asking him to call me at day's end.

I do feel like I need to perform... You are right. I am increasingly judgemental of myself as I have been going so long. I am afraid I am not fixable.....That is what worries me almost as much as the abandonment. I have been pushing to produce I think for a long time... at least in my psyche....which does not always translate to the outside world... if that makes sense.