I have spent the last 2 days reading this thread.....or at least most of it....

believes it would be in my best interests and would keep me safe if I accepted an admittance to hospital

This hospital has not kept you safe. Have you considered being transferred somewhere where you can be kept safe. The last time I was in the hospital (been hospital free for over a year) they put me on a 1to1 when engaging in self injurious behavior.

I LOVE YOUR WIFE!!!! be grateful you have her.

STOP cutting yourself!!!! I understand the relief you feel from the behavior, but STOP!!!! The scars will live with you forever and you will feel bad every time you see them.

Just reading your posts makes me want to punch myself. But I won't