Secret

As you know, I have that abandonment issue as well. I feel as Pink does though, getting completely better = not seeing him as much and eventual graduation as he calls it. I don't consciously conjure up drama, I'm a slow learner...

Do you write in a journal at all? So far since Tues. session I have dug up all sorts of things that I'm realizing. All of it about me and ironically not him.

For example, who is unclear in how they communicate me or him? Me. Maybe he mirrors me so that I can feel what he feels from me.

Who is inconsistent in identifying and fixing my issues me or him? That would be another me I think. I'm the one who is afraid to express myself and I'm possibly looking to blame him instead?

Is it his job or mine to take charge of my progress? Now having said all this, my distorted thinking still thinks I am right about some of how I feel.

He once told me that I am a polltaker and need to get many opinions on very personal matters. None of the people I poll can hear my version and his for clarity so this fosters more insecurities and doubt. Some people validate what I think and some like you all here will challenge me with questions. It makes me re-think. So....

If he is pushing you, my guess is it is for your benefit and not his relief. You've been with him a long time. We need to remember that their goal is to see us get better and go out in the world and have more fulfilling relationships. These are exact words from my T.

The thought of that terrifies me. I still need him but do I really? Do you really?