I am not close to anyone, and I can't go to therapy because the stupid insurance company tells my father the name of every provider I see and how often I see that person. I do not want anyone to know if I go to a therapist. I am an adult, and it is not anyone's business. No money to pay out of pocket, so I just have to figure out how to fix myself.

I just want depression to leave me alone. It is 6 p.m., and I still have not gotten out of bed. Please make the crying stop...