I just wanted to say that you've described almost my exact situation in your post. I also spend every single day as another person, and it's really tiring putting up this front in front of other people. Moreover, it's rather upsetting that people like this fake persona that I've created more than my actual self. I can feel so much hate inside me and all this raw despair just storming away. Unfortunately I cannot provide any sort of advice. I've been to therapy but it didn't work for me. Talking to people doesn't either, but maybe it will for you? Maybe if you have someone you can trust to support you?