Thanks. I've been thinking about this alot. I think I probably should tell him, but I might wait another session or so. Or maybe I'll write it up, and decide during the session. Since I gave him something very big/important to me (in writing) last time (at the end of the session), I think I need to wait and see his reaction... make sure he's not going to bring it up (I asked him not to). I think that will help a bit.

Espresso - Interesting that you got asked in the initial evaluation. I don't think I've ever had a T ask me outright.

Lunatic Soul - thanks, I'm glad that it worked out for you. For me, I would not do well with something that felt like a threat. It would make me mad, and probably act out or quit. Maybe, I guess it's hard to predict. I just think I'm having a hard enough time with "trust" - and this T is still very new - if he *were* to react badly to me, especially since I'm not actively doing anything, it would really make the whole T-thing even more difficult for me!

Red75 - thanks for this. Yeah, that's my fear... that if I force myself to tell him, even if he reacts perfectly fine, I may feel rotten afterwards, and it may make it that much harder to resist. I'm trying to keep some balance for myself!

8888an8888 - Congratulations! I'm glad she was able to help you stop, that's awesome!

Thanks everyone, sorry I was a bit slow responding today. Very tired day, spent alot of time laying around watching tv... and pondering therapy, of course!