I feel horrible and such guilt that in the middle of being intimate with my bf, I called him by my exbf's name. I seriously don't remember saying it and if I did I don't know why I would ever say such thing. I love my current bf to death and even asked him to marry me once. I am so deeply in love with him. The exbf was a horrible guy who I dated for 6-8months and I left him because he cheated on me. There was no deep connection with that exbf either. Its been over two years since I had any contact with the exbf.

My current bf now is in shock but tells me that he's not mad. He finds a reason why I would mention the exbf name bc he had brought up the issues about my previous relationships and thats probably why I said the exbf name. I feel even worse when my bf isn't showing any signs that he's furious with me. If I was in shoes, I would be so mad.

So what should I do next? My bf said he's not mad but I think its just because he's in shock. Also, he doesn't like feeling angry so he often hold things in when he's upset. I don't know how to make it up to him for doing something so wrong of me. I dont know whats wrong with me.