Fuzzybear, support to me means having and giving love, tending to connections in one's life, no one someone cares if you are not around and will knock on your door or peer in the window to make sure you are all right.

I have not done the things humans are supposed to do to develop support, and I feel that I am seriously flawed at being able to do those thing.

Not only do I feel undeserving of support, I feel that I should take up as little space on the planet as possible. I used to try to be invisible when I entered a room. I got over it for a while, but since 2003, I have lapsed back into feeling that way.