Trigger warning!!! I don't know pawn...I went to church tonight and I was so terrified I wanted to hide under the bench my husband and I were sitting in. Instead, I told my husband about it and we walked around, away from people. I still couldn't shake the feeling. Everything my preacher said felt like it hit me in the head. I am paranoid. I just can't tell...and I definitely am not always like this...it's just that these thoughts are placed in my mind and they are there for a reason. It makes me want to hang from a noose. I have little kids though and I can't imagine messing up their lives like that.