Hi. This is my first post here so I will intoduce myself briefly. Im 36. Im a mom. I just moved mself and my 3 kids across the country to love with my fiance...which is a long and tangled story all its own. I was dxed bipolar among other things several years back. I have a history of drug abuse but have been clean for a few years. Also been an abuse victim..lived a promiscuous life....you get it.

Anyway. I have made the decision to deal with my issues without uaing medication. I have been med-free for about 8 months now. I made this decision because every cocktail I tried left me feeling either numb and emotionless or downright sick. None of them created any sort of balance I could live with. Before I moved here, I was working with a therapist who supported my decision amd was helping me learn to recognize my triggers, when a manic episode was coming and how to manage my symptoms without meds through meditation, exercise and a certain amount of CBT. It wadnt always perfect but I was.doing well and feeling more stable every day.

I have been unable to find a.pdoc or a therapist here willing to suppory this decision and Im very frustrated. It seems I am left struggling to continue this journey on my own. Any advice and support I could get would mean the world to me at this point. I find myself having a much harder time managing without the care and support of my therapist to keep me grounded.