[emoji30] . haven't felt this way in awhile. Then again haven't been so confused. Tomorrow..... no tonight I have to come clean. Because I can't face my addiction, I've thought of suicide. I have thought that I'm evil because of what I do in less than 5% of my week. And part of the time I pretend I am something that I'm not. I'm not happy, or even..... me. Addiction has taken over my life, and now I'm in a pit of darkness, wanting someone to talk too.