Really down today. Yesterday my parents treated me, my husband, and my son to a trip to the Columbus Zoo. It was mostly for my son - we ourselves have no money to do much special, plus I don't drive but locally, and my husband doesn't drive much farther. The county fair is a bore. This was tons better. It's 2+ hours away so took the entire day. I think I was more excited about it than my son because one of my main interests is animals. I couldn't wait!! And it was a great day. Loved seeing all the animals. Except - every single picture but the last I took, of the giraffes, is gone. I have a small Samsung phone that is pretty full picture-wise of pictures I took at a concert last year and don't want to take off for sentimental reasons. So I have space for maybe 2 pictures. So what I did, and have done before, is take the picture, send it to my e-mail, then delete it so I'll have room for the next picture. As luck would have it, not one of my pictures went through. I don't know what's been going on with my phone unless it's the cheaper card I've been getting not allowing various functions because my browser hasn't been working lately, either. But I was so devastated when I checked my e-mail box last night and saw that there were no pictures at all there. Had a huge cry before bed, hardly slept even though I was dead tired, started shaking and just kept wondering why nothing ever works out for me. Why does everything go wrong?? I know this is not a good way to think and I should counter these thoughts, but it really does seem true. I got no souvenirs except a little African doll for a friend (but may keep for myself now) - just had my pictures. Now I suppose all I have are the memories in my head - pretty much like with my life up to the fire. Why does the universe keep taking and taking and taking away from me?? Why can't I have even some zoo pictures?? What is so wrong with that??!! I had some really good ones, too. Bats, lions, jaguars, rhinos, elephants, moose and reindeer, birds, tigers, cheetahs, some adorable precious little monkeys, prairie dogs, all kinds of things. I hadn't been to this zoo in 20-some years since I went, again with my parents, to take my nephews when they were young boys. It's not something we do often. I am just so upset.