My paranoia is a fairly new realization for me....like less than a month. While the realization is fairly new...I still wonder how long I've had paranoid thinking. Paranoia paralyzes me sometimes..especially when in a manic or depressed.

It's never really a lack of motivation...though that was the only way to explain it at the time. It was more like I was paralyzed and couldn't move or do what was needed. Kinda like I now when I'm paranoid.

This is all new and scary stuff to me. Still trying to wrap my mind around the idea.