Welcome back bhugz, I hope everything went well with your exams.
Schizophrenia is getting out of my area of experience. At times, under certain circumstances and medications, I felt some unreality, but I won't say it was anything near what you must feel or have felt. I'm sorry I won't be able to help you with that.
Lonliness though is something I can relate to as I've mentioned above. But I don't know what to add. I'm male and I've never been molested, so guess I can't help with that either. I'd help if I could, maybe something will come to me later, but right now I don't know what to say

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but rising every time we fall." Confucius