Grey Matter! That's so awesome. Finding a haircut you really like and then people respecting your pronouns. So validating for you I bet! Really happy for ya!

Kraken, I'm wondering if you can modify this binder? I've had to do that to mine before I found one that fits. I have a REALLY small rib cage so that even XS wouldn't do any proper binding. But I was able to sew it up in a way that made it fit better. Just make sure it isn't TOO tight of course. I found an Asian made binder that goes very small which ended up being almost perfect and lucky it was very cheap.

AllonsY Seroquel is such a pain in that way If only it didn't have that nasty side effect. Don't take it out on yourself, it really isn't your fault, it's just what happens on some meds. I've definitely heard of bigger people passing in the gender they desire, or at least becoming more ambiguous. I'm sorry you feel so hopeless. Can you talk to your Dr. or pdoc about this? Having gained so much weight should definitely be looked into as it can lead to health problems as well. But it's definitely not helping your mental health it seems which is just as important.