Really hard week. My ex has taken my children away for 11 days and gave me 3 days notice. l was so anxious on Thursday and tried to get an extra session with my T, but we couldn't find a time we could both make.

l respect the fact that he tried and l reassured him that l would be Ok without an extra session. But it is so hard right now, I want to Sl, it is all l have thought about all day. l can't settle to anything and am so sad and tearful. l have tried distractions, walking, meditation, even food and smoking ( l gave up 15 years ago) but it is the SI l am craving. l know if l do it l will feel better, but it is the shame of T then asking me about it at our next session, that is stopping me. l just want it to stop.