Me too, Janniebug!

I have thought about it and not only is it shame, but to me when I make eye contact with her it feels so... intimate.. and it makes me think about how close I want to be to her and that feeling is really overwhelming. If I look at her then I want her to hug me. And I know she won't/can't but it's the feeling in me that is overwhelming, the wanting, the needing.

Much easier to look at the floor. Or the toys on the shelves she has for the kids. Or the blinds. Or the kleenex box. Or the fingerprints on the door. Or my knees. Or... well anyway, I understand.

It is something I am thinking about talking to her about.

Have you and your T talked some about it? To explore it and understand it more?

Baby steps and lots of self congratulations