Hi toesquasher, NO stupid about it!!! If you've been fighting the urges it's completely understandable how you might be drawn here.............maybe to feel that other people understand, because you can relate to things on her, to see that you're not on your own, to see if/how other people are managing.....something/s like that, maybe???
But of course sometimes thoughts/urges can spiral..................
And if you'll allow me just one suggestion..............perhaps it will help just a little if you go back to "things to do instead" http://forums.psychcentral.com/self-...-yourself.html ??
But if you want to talk.............
Try to take care

Alison