no not the god up high, this is the doctor that tell the goverment if i an ill or a fake.
im feeling like i have no control over myself or what is happening around me, not sure what to expect tomorrow.
am i scared ? ....... hell yes, this man doesnt know me and he has the power to send me back to my living nightmare, called realworld.
do i feel better ? .............. no, im still the same person that worries about just about everything, the person how fights with the urge to end it all, everyday.
this meeting with this mortal god, is ripping me apart inside, the acid taste is in my mouth and throut , i have started to turn off when people (family) talk to me.
it the moment im anxiety x100.
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lifes a game, i no longer wish to play
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