munchie, i definitely have no intention of telling anyone in my life about the si at this point. theres not much point, they'd either be horrified or terribly worried and what good would that do anyone? still haven't cut since last saturday though. trying!! i'm feeling ok today. not superduper fantastic but ok. but i'm afraid of tomorrow. friday comes again.

thanks direction.... local library here does have internet but it is also packed with college students at all times and the wait for the computer can be endless. plus i'm not always the best with big crowds lately. i do tend to write a lot of stuff down so i guess i could try that. i just never know whether it's going to be cathartic or triggering. its a crapshoot. thank you for the suggestions and the prayers..... and i wish you luck in dc too.

des... oh yes, that grass does seem a hell of a lot greener an awful lot of the time. you guys here are one of my blessings right now and i'm thankful. sending hugs to all...