Thanks for the positive replies.

It has been rather mixed today... but with exception to a bit of si this morning I have not done any since and the day has got progressively tolerable.

Had a call from my mate who is a cop and I could tell just by how I was talking to him that I was on a more even keel... was getting him to laugh and we chatted in a very normal way which was very different from when I saw him previously and I was unhinged.

He's told me he'll come see me next week whether it be at the hospital or at home depending on what my plans are for those days.

Had a nice chat with another via the chat function on here about zombies of all things... though I think she was humouring my slight over zealous enthusiasm hehe.

Not going to lie though, I am nervous about tomorrow... about returning to hospital... it is a high stimulus environment and it's been notable over this weekend how my anxiety if not my depression has reduced whilst being at home.

Will see how things go.