I did it again. I was told that if I get one more moving violation ticket, my license will be taken away.

Today I made a huge mistake. I made a right hand turn just as the light changed from yellow to red.

Stupid. Why didn't I stop? I realized a split second later that I should have stopped but it was too late. WHY DIDN'T I STOP?

Now I'm 75 percent sure that a traffic camera had caught my mistake and I'll soon be receiving another ticket and a letter saying my license will be revoked.

The scary thing is that I make so many of these mistakes I no longer seem to be able to make the slightest attempt to stop them. I just watch them pile up in front of me and brace myself to get ready to be punished.

It doesn't matter what I do because I will just screw up and get punished. I know I deserve it, but I can't make it stop.