What would be the consequences of losing your license? Would you "gain" (positively or negatively) in any way from losing your license?
Is it tied in somehow with a control issue? (don't tell me...)
Do you think you deserve this for some other reason?
Could you make some rules for yourself that would prevent repetition of this behavior?
Write them down? Put them on the wheel/dashboard, on a tape?
You have any ideas?