Thanks for your support Echoes...

You are so kind and I appreciate you always... know that.

I faxed him. He did not respond. I suppose I am in trouble. I think it is something that perhaps he is not able to do... call me for support but I need to accept it. I think that he is protective of his boundaries. I hope I have not blown it.

I did go swimming tonight and that helped.....at least for the moment. I really really do hate this. It is like a chess game. I think he is doing this for a reason but I also it speaks to personal limitations... perhaps on both of our part. lol.

I suppose I am finding the floor and it is lonely here...

No he actually focused on the idea that I not have to worry about her or I having a good time. Just do it. Whatever is a step forward. But this person would be coming from the opposite end of the continent.

No.. I just need to let it happen.

Sigh....

Thanks for listening.