After trying to go it alone and failing. Last night I spilled it all, my drinking on days off the second my wife walks out the door. How long it's been going on for and how truly unable I am to control it and that I am an alcoholic and it goes beyond what she thought she knew. It's was hard and I hadn't intended to have this discussion, it just happened. It was like I couldn't carry on one more day with this secret. It just came out and I feel better that I can share it with her. I don't know what this means or how it's going to turn out, but I'm not alone anymore.