I don't know.... all the time I try to distract myself so I get better. but everything I used for that has gotten a negative label at some point and started making me feel worse. so right now I don't know anything to do at all because it is all triggering. it's impossible to live like this. every activity I can think of makes me sad for some individual reason.

I cannot deal with any more rejection and disappointment. but life is full of it and I cannot handle.