((((((((((((((((((((((FuzzyBear)))))))))))))))))))))))
I don't know you that well, but it makes me so sad to see you post this.

From the little I have heard from you and read of what you've posted, you shine out as incredibly sweet and kind, a super friend and extremely loving. There's no WAY you're rubbish of ANY sort!!
There may not be much I can do, but I'm hoping life looks brighter soon!!!!!!
luck&love,
~muse