Nicole, PLEASE believe me when I say that this is not healthy for you at all!! I was in a very similar situation, and the emotional abuse this "best friend" of mine put me through led to my self-injury and many of my maladjusted thought patterns. I hope and pray your situation isn't anywhere near that bad, but if she is using guilt to try and make you do what SHE wants without considering you at all, it's time for you to GET OUT! No friend treats people they love like that.


I truly hope all of this works out in the best way for you, and I'm sorry for both your losses--even though losing this friend might be healthy, it is still horribly painful.
luck&love,
~muse