Saw my T today. (Every Monday.) I'm beginning to think its too often because I don't usually have anything to say. So today, she brings out all the old topics we've talked about. Talk about OUCH! Talked about the painful things from the last year. We talked about the homework for the dbt group and I had a hard time with this as this module is difficult for me. I was yawning. Something that she's noticed before. Truthfully, its probably because I'd only gotten up a half an hour before, but she thought I just hated being there. Then she started yawning because I was yawning. We got through the hour, but gosh, she even asked if I wanted to come on Friday because Monday she can't meet, and I said no that's okay because I knew it would be just like this week again. Should I hope for something bad to happen so I can talk about it in therapy? No! Right now, I'm trying to get the kids registered for school. That's my big project. I hope she doesn't decide we can't see each other. She didn't seem mad, so that's good. She just seemed like we had nothing to talk about. You'd think we would after everything I've posted here. But I'm seeing my pdoc to talk about going off zyprexa, not my T. She asked if I'm anxious or anything like that and i said no, but maybe I am? I'm not sure.

You know, one of the things the homework wants to know is what you want to do with your life. I was asked that question as a senior in high school and I had no idea, even though I was accepted to university as a music major. Boy I really messed that one up- i should've finished school, but my dad wouldn't pay for it anymore if I was living with my boyfriend -turned into husband.