Hey Skeezyks. It's tricky when we think others are going to think badly of us for expressing ourselves. And it's hard when we've been brought up to be so self-conscious as we are in this world today. Is it possible that you're just so used to not being able to be yourself that when you were about to you got scared? Doing things we're not used to can be a scary experience because we don't know what to expect. I wonder if things might have been ok if you wore the beads. But don't beat yourself up over it, think about it and learn from it, find out what makes you feel most comfortable and maybe try something out next time or not - whatever works best for you.