I have been diagnosed with Major Depression, Panic Disorder, ADHD and Borderline Personality Disorder over my lifetime. I suspect all of them are true, except the BPD, which I think is only partially true.

I am lucky that I have found a low dose of the medication Abilify VERY helpful for various aspects such as preventing my darkest moods, and completely stopping outbursts of anger.

Don't find normal anti-depressants work for me.

But still in a generally poor mood state, not severely poor, but often feel pessimistic/lack positivity.

Have had some level of suicidal thoughts and thinking but not crisis severe, and I am not the sort to tell other people about them (including professionals).

Greatly lack motivation, always have. I'm very impulsive, and addiction prone. Have had long history of alcohol/drug abuse issues, been mostly good recently, but struggling to stay completely away from Alcohol. Still heavily addicted to Nicotine chewing gum.

Meh. Motivation and impulsive behaviour are my core problems. Then its low moods and anxiety. I rarely go out of the house I am too anxious and paranoid. Don't trust people. Often go several days without seeing another person/going out. Get very paranoid someone is going to break in.