<font color="purple"> ((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS ))))))) </font>

Please know that we would NEVER think bad of YOU or any one that has come to PC for HELP and SUPPORT.... that which is usually needed after another person has done you wrong or left you and your life (abandoned).

IMO - I would say that what you experienced was due to some form of abuse that another had placed upon on you as a child and since you knew no better you acted out in the only way you knew how to.... and this has a name: Trauma Bonding - when one bonds to their abuse or abuser.

... I will place an article on here in a few minutes I put together on Trauma Bonding for you to read, and any one can use it for any type of abuse they have suffered through.

If it helps you any I will share yet another part of my life that I have yet to share here on PC so you will know that you are not alone.... I was sexually abused by another with this type of abuse when I too was young.