i'm pretty sure i'm bipolar, and that i experience psychotic depression episodes, but i'm not sure for the latter.

i wasn't sure if this would count as delusions (or anything else that comes with psychotic depression). when i'm depressed, i begin to doubt everything i do. i start thinking that everything i say and do, and that everything i have said and done in my entire life has been planned out. or, to be more specific, that everything i've done i only did because i thought it was what someone else would do. this thinking escalates very much, to the point where i can't think and have to keep myself occupied. if i let myself sit down and think when i'm like this, i begin to doubt my thoughts. i begin to think that my entire personality is fake and has developed over the years because of me doing things only because i thought it was something anyone else would do in my situations. sometimes this causes panic attacks for me, if not then i just feel majorly depressed and anxious.

could this be a result of psychotic depression? any help would be appreciated. thanks