I seriously need some advice. I have no friends and no one to talk to about this situation.

1. My boyfriend has been treating me like a roommate for the past month. No touching whatsoever. No saying he loves me. Nothing. Just going through the motions of living together. Having meals together. But him sleeping on couch.

2. He has major health problems like heart and cancer. But Still smokes. About 3 weeks ago, he told me and his friends he is no longer going to the doctor.

3. Today, we were planning on going to do some errands. I found him passed out face down on the driveway. Called 911. When he came to, he refused to go to the hospital. He said it was just a waste of time to go. This is at least the 4th time I have found him like this in the last 3 years. Plus other times where others have had to help him. He has always gone before. Most of the time, he has needed a new stent or sometimes something with his pacemaker. The last time was in June of this year.

4. I asked him what I should do. He said I should just go ahead and go. I got a few blocks and started crying so bad that I returned. I had this bad feeling that when I came back, he wouldn't still be alive. He thought there was something wrong with the car. I just told him I didn't feel comfortable driving today.

5. I feel like we need to talk about our relationship but whenever I do, he makes me feel terrible that I am thinking about myself. I don't have a job. I think if I did have something to do, I could handle this a little better. But maybe not.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I used to drink a lot when I felt overwhelmed like this. But I don't want to do that anymore. I am trying to exercise more.

I would appreciate anyone's advice. Thanks.