I don't even know where to begin because I am so miserable. I came back three weeks ago from being forced to take time off at work (I was gone for 7 weeks). I went to my hometown where my parents still live and stayed with them while I saw a therapist three times a week and saw a psychiatrist a few times.

The therapist part was helpful, the psychiatrist part was semi-helpful. But now I am back to where I live and started going back to work last week. I have switched to a different therapist, however it's only once a week. I am realizing that perhaps I need more.

I am so miserable, sad, and so lonely. I keep thinking about my broken relationship from nine months ago -- mostly because I don't have any friends or a life for that matter to keep me distracted. I don't know what to do because I can barely make it through the day. I am so sick and tired of this sad. I can't call my psychiatrist because he believes that I really shouldn't rely on medication to get me out of an episode. I obviously feel differently. I just want to sleep so I don't have to feel this sad.

But mostly, my problem is that I am so lonely. I have been trying to "engage" as my first therapist had instructed, but I keep getting disappointed. I try to reach out to people, but everyone is so busy and they don't feel connected enough to me to reply back or to keep their plans with me. It's the loneliest feeling when no one wants to be your friend.