I was shocked today. Out of everything I've told T she's never really "shown" emtion. I mean I've felt it but shes never shed a tear, not that I even expected it. Anyways today I was telling her about my SI i did yesterday and how I felt maybe if I told her she will terminate me.

I told her how all of a sudden it reminded me of when I was 16 and got drunk at work and my dad had to come get me and how my mum then told me I had spoilt xmas and took the tree and all the cards down. I said how I did the same thing the following yr also and she once again said xmas was spoilt and took everything down.

T said "The cow! thats unbelievable! she actually took the tree down?" I goes yeah, and I see her moving her feet and looked at her for a second and saw a tear in her eye. I didn't think out everything I've spoken about in T that was a big deal.

T said "She had no thought that something might have been going on for you, it was all about her?" I said "Well yeah, but thats how it always was"

Geez, it felt really nice to see T's reaction. I've taken it inside and gonna use it for that part of me that needs it!

Oh T said she wouldn't terminate me because of my SI.