I have thought about leaving as I have a few times before. I don't know if I should stay and hope & try for things to be better or should I just leave and know that this relationship was never any good in the first place.

He was with someone else when I met him. I didn't know until it was too late and I thought we both loved each other. Now, I am feeling like why did I get involved? Why did I do something so terrible to another lady that loved him? According to his sister, the other lady was way better at dealing with his medical issues. Even though, I try very hard.

I am just having a really difficult time dealing with all these emotions and feelings. I am so tempted in getting drunk but I know that alcohol won't help in the long run.