Grrrrr. Feeling very critical of others AND myself right now. This is not fun. I have been literally growling today. Not fun. So pissed off right now. I know this will pass but I hate it. I think this is how some hypomania manifests for me--really agitated relentless energetic self-flaggelation and self-hate... along with irritability with others.

I am having trouble accepting this diagnosis today because I think I have a relatively mild version..... must remember everything is dampened down by meds and remember what life was like before meds. Definitely more intense up and down.

I feel angry with myself for a purchase I made when I was really involved in looking for a woman on the side (bisexual). I had made plans with someone that fell through. It was supposed to be for those plans. I wish I didn't buy it and it's just burning a hole in my purse. I feel so odd walking around with it and thinking how people have no idea I have it. But it was so right at the time.