I'd go back just to curse him out. That's what I normally do. I get mad at my T. I say that I'm not going to go back. But I always do. I fool myself by thinking I can make a statement by leaving on my terms. It always backfires because I need him too much. I hate that. So then I tell myself that I'm going to go back so I can let him know just how pissed I am. It makes it feel okay to go back. I hope you can go back.