hey guys

so my day started off really ******. i ended up writing T this really depressing email last night. he texted me today and said he read it and asked how i was feeling. at that point i still felt upset and he was supportive. i didnt want to isolate myself all day. so i went to the campus and ate lunch. then i went to meet with this apartment manager to get on the wait list for an apartment. it will most likely be a long time before i will ever get in there. it's like section 8 but nice and the same rent i pay now.

after that i went to my friends and we had fun. we went to target and ate dinner at chilis. we laughed a lot. also i got my work schedule. and it worked out that i can meet T on friday at 2pm and the pdoc at 11:30 am. im glad i dont work friday so i can meet T and pdoc but im scheduled for 21 hours at work. i know thats not a lot to some people but it is for me and work has been triggering lately. at least it means more money... ? ? ?

anyway im meeting 'other' T tomorrow morning. im trying to get him to approve me packing my own meds and getting them refilled myself. my T wants me to start doing that so i can be prepared for when i leave the program. so i need other Ts approval and pdocs approval. i think they will approve it.

so yeah my day started off really ****** but got a lot better. and it's all because i chose to leave my apartment and be around other people.